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yeah I interviewed for a job in Maryland : just for fun.

A recruiter calls me up in the afternoon and says I have this great opening in Maryland for Hughes, are you game for a interview in the afternoon - I thought what the heck and I told him that I could do a 6 PM. Then some desi guy calls me up and simply chats me up for over half an hour, hardly any technical questions. I really dont know what was the deal - I was hoping for a tough technical interview which might wake me up from my current slumber and motivate me to tidy up - but this was total waste of time.

Well, just day before yesterday I actually acted smart and advised Dad on a personal matter which I had totally misunderstood - thanks to misleading version provided by my sis. Finally mom cleared the story and today I apologized to Dad after wishing him a Happy Birthday! I wonder why sis manipulated the story so much - should really discuss with Mom before I start coming to any conclusions in the future. Noted. I must be really dumb. True, Noted.

Other than that I keep getting steady stream of calls from recruiters and I havent responded to even one of them. I am fed up of weighing the Architect job back home with the NY based jobs and I cant take it anymore. I have almost decided to take up some damn job in NY for the time being. To add to that I have anyway landed with couple of projects in my current assignment - so no dearth of work for another 6 months - which brings me to the problem of housing. Now that we have terminated the house lease in NJ, I have to find a new house by May end. crap. Hope I will find one within my budget in NY.

To add to that I am sick, cold, fever, running nose, heavy head and what not. In a meeting one of my client solutions manager went on to ask if I needed water or something and probably we should reschedule the meeting if I wasnt feeling well. Anyway landed the project due to the huge appreciations that we garnered in the previous project - my offshore counterpart did all the work and I got all the unneccessary appreciation. Damn - I know how he must have been feeling - I was in the same stage for nearly 3 yrs. Damn the Face value - I hate this ackward situations where one gets all the attention when he is not the actual person who should be getting it. In addition to that my managers peddle my name just to get more business and mileage out of this as I seem to fit the position of a mascot perfectly.

Sometimes I think why the heck - why the heck am I struggling so much - why not just get back and lead a comfortable life back home. But again I am not really struggling or working hard am I? and moreover I always seem to be driven by the fact of 'What if' - what if I work hard at my ambitions - and what if......

Probably that is the thing that keeps the spark going on in my life?